The Final Day #30

Today is the day...my final day. I finished the challenge. All thirty days have been completed and it feels weird, it feels great, it feels like a relief, it feels satisfying.

When I heard about the challenge originally, I had a lot of doubts. Doubts about being sustained on just raw fruits and vegetables and doubts with myself. Would I be able to last? Would I feel hungry? How would it work when I traveled? How would I be able to eat when Josh was eating something else? These along with many more thoughts popped up a lot before I started and it was four words that made them all go away "Life is always happening". That was the moment that I knew I could do this, that I could exist in my everyday life on whole, nourishing, raw food. I had no doubt and for all the joking of wanting to eat the crusts I cut off when making finger sandwichs or smelling Josh's food or Angie's chocolate, I was really never tempted, never felt deprived or left out. I have a wonderful network of friends that support me so much and I thank all of them for their encouragement and their self-less acts of accommodating me and my wild and crazy projects.

Through this process, I have learned to appreciate and enjoy Mother nature's bounty. I have grown to appreciate the complexity and wonderfulness that is a piece of fruit or vegetable. I have learned what it feels like to be different, to make different choices, to adapt without imposing. I have felt my body respond to physical movement in a way I have never felt before. I have reconnected to wholeness and rid my self of addiction. Before this challenge, I was in denial, I was a procrastinator, I was kidding my self daily, but after 30 days of cleansing mind, body and soul, I have lost the ego that is addicted to self-destruction. And I have learned that I don't have to be perfect. That I will make mistakes and make choices that don't always agree with my body, but I have skills and I have wisdom that will guide me to be kinder and gentler to myself on the days I take a detour.

"Life is always happening". It doesn't stop and wait for us. It moves...continuously. Sometimes fast and sometimes slow, but its moving and I feel, right now in this very moment(because that's all I have) that I am moving right along with it. I am in harmony with life.

Peace :)